I don’t remember if they were chasing me, or if it was just a regular game of hide and seek but I knew exactly where I needed to be. I slipped down behind the coach where there was a gap between the rounded back of the furniture and the meeting of the two walls in the corner of the room.
Once I was hidden behind, it was dark, but not too dark and it was another world entirely. No one every found me there and I could have stayed there for hours.
It was my world and I got to decide everything. Bliss.
One day, I just kind of got lost. I went to my hiding place and stayed there for ages. And when I came out, I felt like I’m missed out. Like something was going on in the real world and I wasn’t part of it.
I knew that I need to have a space that was mine, where I could go into my own world, but not to disappear there, not to get lost.
A few years ago I noticed something that felt the same….or at least excruciatingly (maybe even embarrassingly!) familiar.
Like I was hiding out. Not engaging. And missing out.
I had been meeting with clients and potential clients by skype of a few years already. I never used the camera, always claiming that it distracted me. I believed that I could just listen and it would give me more information.
And of course, that meant I didn’t need to think about what I was wearing or whether my hair hadn’t been washed. It was easy.
One day, I realized I was doing it again. I was hiding out.
If I got on the camera, I could really connect with a person, and even just for a half our consultation, it would make all the difference. That I LOVE looking people in the eye and opening up to true connection, yet I was protecting myself.
It was denial and fear. What if they don’t like what I do, what if they see me for real and still choose not to engage.
So I decided to come out of my hiding place and turn on the camera. And that’s when I realized that I had been hiding out in many places in my business.
Not taking enough risks, trying new things, going for the old even if it wasn’t working so well. That was the year that I shook things up and make big changes in my business.
The first thing I did was join a Mastermind. It was the opportunity to connect with some amazing like-minded people and be part of a group that was truly invested in my success.
Later I created my own Mastermind – and it’s been amazing. If you think that you are ready to stop hiding out and might be interested in hearing more, just reach out and let me now.
I still find ways to create my own world – a walk on the beach, writing, walking with some beautiful music or meditation – it keeps me sane and clear. But I’m not hiding out. Are you?
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